Monday, September 19, 2011

LOVE LETTER -XLV- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )


At night I dreamed about the magical moments we shared ...Holding hands on the street, laying in each other's loving embrace...Every last moment was still stuck in my brain.....

They were still stuck in the creases of my fast-paced mind.No matter how hard I tried to be rid of them, they stuck there like the disgusting files of a glue trap.Unable to move or take flight.Reminding my mind of what my heart never wanted to forget.
Oh Allah.. I never want to forget that at one point you, yes you, the nonchalant musician,ha
d once loved me.Yes you loved me.And dear Allah.. did I still love you? I loved you with every last fiber of my being...

I loved you to the point where I would take my life for you if it would bring you back. Even if it were just for my dying breaths. If I do recall in my manic behavior I even threatened to take my life. Yes, I in fact held a knife to my wrist and told you that I was in the middle of doing the nasty deed. And what was your response to me? ...
"Stop being so fucking over dramatic. It's just an easy break up" And that's what pushed me over the edge. That is what made me press the knife, down onto my exposed vein and draw ugly dark lines of red that, quite fortunately.... didn't kill me. But damn if I didn't try. It was an easy break up? For you my dear it might have been.

I can't say it isn't easy to look at you these days. Because it is. It is easy to look at you. Accept when I look at you I don't feel the sick amount of adoration I had for you. No, instead I can stare at you and pity you. Because while I moved on to a brighter and better life, you're still stuck being the sad lonely creature you are since you left. Yes, I noticed the change. I noticed the spark in your eye fade into the dull shell of a man yoo've become. And I can't feel sorry for you. I just can not. And I'm ok with that.....with heart hurt....

Your's Truly,

Sunday, September 4, 2011

LOVE LETTER -XLIV- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear Love,

Hi.... You're always lighting up my heart with the things you do and say. I feel so happy just being with you this way. You're my love, and will forever be my love.
You will always be the love of my life, and please never give up, always have faith in yourself and you will gain the greatest gift of all, the gift of hope and love you righteously deserve. Every time I think of you my heart misses a beat. You're my theme for a dream!

Every moment we share together we grow closer. I'm simply hanging by a moment, waiting to see you again so you can hold me so tight that all else fades, I thought after I left, you would fade away from my mind, but..... still everyday I wake up dreaming of our time together. I will never forget you. I hope you still think of me too. I love you with all that I am, all that I was and all that I will ever be.

Please know that my love and I are inseparable and I would want it no other way and if time could express my love for you then it's forever and a day, I can't wait to be with you, see your smile, look in your eyes, feel your sweet touch, hear your perfect words and laugh with you in the perfect relationship. the way I feel about you some people call it crazy, some call it insane,
but I call it true love. I really love you......

When we first met, I didn't even consider you real. You were just a pixel on a screen. We talked more and I became so confused. "How I could I have real feelings for a person I've never met?" I'd ask myself. I will never forget the first time I looked into your eyes; it was at that very moment I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. In your eyes I saw everything I needed to know. It's been are years now. Things have not been easy. We've had our ups and downs but, through it all, I do know what we have is so very real.

Honey...I know it is difficult for you, as it is for me, to be separated for so long. Life seems to be full of trials of this type which test our inner strength, and more importantly, our devotion and love for one another. After all, it is said that "True Love" is boundless and immeasurable and overcomes all forms of adversity. In truth, if it is genuine, it will grow stronger with each assault upon its existence.

Dear.., our love has been assaulted many times, and I am convinced that it is true because the longer I am away from you, the greater is my yearning to be with you again. I cherish any thought of you, prize any memory of you that rises from the depths of my mind, and live for the day when our physical separation will no longer be.

Until that moment arrives, I send to you across the miles, my tender love, my warm embrace, and my most passionate love.

Love always,