Wednesday, June 30, 2010

LOVE LETTER -XXVI- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Hello honey....

I know it is difficult for you, as it is for me, to be separated for so long. Life seems to be full of trials of this type which test our inner strength, and more importantly, our devotion and love for one another. After all, it is said that "True Love" is boundless and immeasurable and overcomes all forms of adversity. In truth, if it is genuine, it will grow stronger with each assault upon its existence.

Fir..., our love has been assaulted many times, and I am convinced that it is true because the longer I am away from you, the greater is my yearning to be with you again. I cherish any thought of you, prize any memory of you that rises from the depths of my mind, and live for the day when our physical separation will no longer be.

I've tried my best a thousand times to tell you what I want. I want you to be happy. Really happy. Independently happy. I want that because I love you, a concept I don't believe you've totally grasped. You see love in desperation and need. You think love can be measured by how much time two people want to spend together (every moment is ideal) and by who needs who the most........?????
I see love measured in deeds done and in being the best we can be for ourselves and each other.

There's no way you'll ever be strong with me in your life. Something about me makes you want to be weak, and therein lies our problem. I keep worrying that by cutting you out completely, I'll be burning the bridge I so desperately believe will one day lead us back to each other. I know that's not really true; I know that, given past experiences, nothing ever ends for real. Love never really dies all the way. Not in me, anyways. I love you and I believe that you'll do it; you'll open up... You'll stop letting your mom or your crappy friends define who you are. You'll be that most handsome, perfect man I fell in love with. If you don't... if you don't, I guess it wasn't meant to be.

Stay strong Fir.... If things get much worse between us, I'll be pushing further off yet. I don't see how they won't get worse, but, as always, I'll stick it out until it's too unbearable to deal with. If you hate me, you hate me. Maybe I deserve it for wanting you to be something you may not be.

Until that moment arrives, I send to you across the miles, my tender love, my warm embrace, and my most passionate kiss.
I love you and take care.

Love always....


Sunday, June 27, 2010

LOVE LETTER -XXV- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear Fir.......

I didn't realize until now just how badly I mishandled our relationship and my feelings for you. By being apart, I quickly learned that you were everything I ever wanted and by being so afraid of losing you, I ended up chasing you away by scaring the heck out of you. It wasn't until now that I've realized that instead of complaining about the time I didn't have with you, I should've cherished the time I did have, because it was real and filled with affection. I didn't realize until now ....

I was never alone when we were apart, because just as you were on my mind, I was likely on yours. It wasn't until now that I've realized how special it was to hear your voice even just once a day, let alone several times a day, instead of pouting that you may have fallen asleep without calling first.HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR....and I will never forget you. I hope you still think of me too.....

What I do miss is the feeling behind the way you always stared at me and kissed my hand in the car. The way we looked into each other's eyes and spoke without saying a word. The way you trusted me with your heart and I trusted you with mine. The way you wrote I love you on a steamy window or mirror only to show up again and again for me to see when we were apart. The way you signed to me that you loved me or snuck a kiss or hug in while the pupil weren't watching. The way we wrestled while tickling each other. honey, I could go on and on but you know what I'm saying. Yes, it's the little things I miss the most. The little things that I so recklessly took for granted. All the other was purely a bonus that I overreacted on, eventually destroying "Us."

The promise I made to you is a promise that I will keep forever no matter what. You will always hold a special place in my heart. Even though I'm here and a thousand miles a part, I seem to end up with you. You've set the bar very high for me and that's a good thing because I refuse to settle for less than the standard you've set. I so applaud you for making that move because at the very least, I regained a friend. One that means the world to me.

Before I close I want to sincerely say one last thing straight from my heart .. I realize now what I miss the very most is you!

Forever my love,