Wednesday, October 17, 2012

LOVE LETTER -LI- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )


I’m sorry and I know saying I’m sorry is getting old.  It’s just words can’t express how I’m feeling right now.  I wish I could take back everything I did because I really felt like we had something special.  Everything we had is worth fighting for.  For the first time in my life, I found a guy that did not let me control them and I love that.  For awhile, I began noticing everything I hate about you like your attitude when you’re mad, your oblivion as to how all of your actions affected me, and the fact that you don’t spoil me…. but as I sit here trying to hide my tears because I am so ashamed of my actions, I realize that all of those things I hate about you just makes me want to love you more.   If you hate me I understand.  I deserve that.  I don’t know what the hell I was thinking.  But I know getting through the rest of this life without someone like you in my life will be the worst punishment ever. 
I pray you find it in your heart to forgive me.  I swear I never wanted to hurt you.  You were right about me.  I am afraid.  I’m afraid of someone loving me so much and that I’ll never be able to do right by them.  There is no excuse for my actions baby.  I know this.  I’m a weak little baby  that does not know how to act when opportunities present themselves.  But I promise, if I can just have you as at least a friend, I’ll earn your trust again.  If you have any love left for me, please return my calls or texts or write me a long email and say everything that’s on your heart and mind.  Contrary to my actions, I do believe we have a love worth fighting for and I’ll fight as long as I have to.  

The truth will be revealed, when the times come and telling you ...why I did the bad things to you and become a mad person instead a lovely lady.