I’m sorry and I know saying I’m sorry is getting old. It’s just words can’t express how I’m feeling
right now. I wish I could take back
everything I did because I really felt like we had something special. Everything we had is worth fighting for. For the first time in my life, I found a guy
that did not let me control them and I love that. For awhile, I began noticing everything I
hate about you like your attitude when you’re mad, your oblivion as to how all
of your actions affected me, and the fact that you don’t spoil me…. but as I
sit here trying to hide my tears because I am so ashamed of my actions, I
realize that all of those things I hate about you just makes me want to love
you more. If you hate me I
understand. I deserve that. I don’t know what the hell I was
thinking. But I know getting through the
rest of this life without someone like you in my life will be the worst
I pray you find it in your heart to forgive me. I swear I never wanted to hurt you. You were right about me. I am afraid.
I’m afraid of someone loving me so much and that I’ll never be able to
do right by them. There is no excuse for
my actions baby. I know this. I’m a weak little baby that does not know how to act when
opportunities present themselves. But I
promise, if I can just have you as at least a friend, I’ll earn your trust
again. If you have any love left for me,
please return my calls or texts or write me a long email and say everything
that’s on your heart and mind. Contrary
to my actions, I do believe we have a love worth fighting for and I’ll fight as
long as I have to.
The truth will be revealed, when the times come and telling you ...why I did the bad things to you and become a mad person instead a lovely lady.