Wednesday, October 17, 2012

LOVE LETTER -LI- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )


I’m sorry and I know saying I’m sorry is getting old.  It’s just words can’t express how I’m feeling right now.  I wish I could take back everything I did because I really felt like we had something special.  Everything we had is worth fighting for.  For the first time in my life, I found a guy that did not let me control them and I love that.  For awhile, I began noticing everything I hate about you like your attitude when you’re mad, your oblivion as to how all of your actions affected me, and the fact that you don’t spoil me…. but as I sit here trying to hide my tears because I am so ashamed of my actions, I realize that all of those things I hate about you just makes me want to love you more.   If you hate me I understand.  I deserve that.  I don’t know what the hell I was thinking.  But I know getting through the rest of this life without someone like you in my life will be the worst punishment ever. 
I pray you find it in your heart to forgive me.  I swear I never wanted to hurt you.  You were right about me.  I am afraid.  I’m afraid of someone loving me so much and that I’ll never be able to do right by them.  There is no excuse for my actions baby.  I know this.  I’m a weak little baby  that does not know how to act when opportunities present themselves.  But I promise, if I can just have you as at least a friend, I’ll earn your trust again.  If you have any love left for me, please return my calls or texts or write me a long email and say everything that’s on your heart and mind.  Contrary to my actions, I do believe we have a love worth fighting for and I’ll fight as long as I have to.  

The truth will be revealed, when the times come and telling you ...why I did the bad things to you and become a mad person instead a lovely lady.


Thursday, July 5, 2012

LOVE LETTER -L- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear ,
But there’s something missing. We both know it and been avoiding this moment but the time has come. You know what I mean. We need to break up.
This has been coming on for a long time. We just don’t communicate like we used to. Heck, here I am writing this to you instead of just speaking to you in person, what does that say about us? Look no one did anything wrong, it obviously just wasn’t meant to be. So let’s skip the blame and let me just express my sincere appreciation for you.
I admire you for your sense of confidence and self esteem. You always seem so cool and in control and I look at you in awe. You are more intelligent than anyone I know and it goes beyond the normal book smarts, you have real world common sense. You understand the world and people and always know the right thing to do. And then you do that right thing. You are such a good and beautiful person. Thank you for allowing me to see your lovely soul and for sharing so much of yourself with me. You will make someone really happy someday. I want you to know you deserve a person who will see you as I see you every day, as the most incredible human being alive and a jewel that should be cherished and protected to allow it to shine.
I made a choice to finally let go, because I can't stand the pain, it’s time for my last tear to fall and smile again. So, from now on just remember that, I could've been the best thing you ever had. While I was holding on all you did was let go.
Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I don't have. It’s really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go but its even more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to stay.
I'm going to smile, because I want to make you happy, laugh, so you won't see me cry. I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it killed me, I'm going to smile.
I hate the way I could never hate you. Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete you. Life sucks a lot of the time, right? But you know, if you can get through a heart break, you can get through almost anything.
One day you'll look back, and think...damn! She really love did love me ... Time and time again I forgave you again you. I've forgiven you for things that I swore to myself I'd never forgive someone for.... and here you are, still hurting me, and I still forgave you.
One day you'll look back, and you'll see've missed out on a lot ....

Sunday, April 1, 2012

LOVE LETTER -XLIX- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )


Life is so unpredictable. Changes always come along, in big or small ways. I don't know what happened that this sudden change has turned my world upside down.
I don't know exactly what it is, it just hit me, but there is something really special about you.

It might be all the things I see on the surface, the things that everyone notices and admires about you, qualities, capabilities and a wonderful smile obviously connected to a warm and loving heart; these things set you apart from everyone else. But it may also be the big things ... the person you really are that I hope to know more someday. And it might also be the little things ... the way you walk and all your actions. I receive so much joy just being able to see a smile in your eyes. If I ever figure out the magic that makes you so special, I'd probably find out that it's a combination of all these things. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You are really amazing.

Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken, I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you.

Only the most special things in my world get to come inside my heart and stay. And now, I realize how deeply my life has been touched by you.

Love Always,


Saturday, January 28, 2012

LOVE LETTER -XLVIII- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear ,

Oh, where do I begin? Honey, you’re great. You’re more than great, you are wonderful. And we’ve had some really good times together, some good laughs, funny moments and touching memories.

There are those times when you feel like nothing could possibly go your way. You hate knowing that, the one person so special to you doesn’t feel even a fraction of the emotions that seep from you and you wish that there was a way to tell, and fear losing the friendship between us.

And the way I treats you is destroying you. I make you feel like you mean so much to me. I hold such a vulnerable thing captive and that thing is your heart. I so close to breaking it but so close to setting you free you’re willing to risk it. It hurts to be so torn between so many emotions. I wish it could all just stop. I know that you’re happy and I want you to know that, when you’re happy, I’m happy, because I would do anything for you, because you mean so much to me. It hurts me to know to know that the one thing that brought a smile to my face and made me happy is gone.

I only want to know, if you would have ever made me an option? You want me to tell you the honest truth? Yeah..? Well here it is…I dream about you every night. I spend endless afternoons thinking about you. Some days, I don’t think about you at all, but that’s rare, because I usually don’t go a minute without thinking about you, or seeing you in my mind.

When a first time I meet you, I though you would be different. For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone. I am sorry I can’t be that person for you. Thank you for teaching me to trust my instincts, you were the first person to show me my own truth. I don’t lie any more as you can probably tell from all of this.

Your true LOVE