LOVE LETTER -XXXVIII- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )
How are you? Hope you are always doing fine. I am really appreciate and very understand what you mean to me... However, I am very great having you in my life because you are very special in my heart and in my dreams.We are never had any such relationship before, but this is the one of opportunity from the Allah to know someone like you.... also for sure that i really want to be part of you ...
When asked what I would say to you, I simply nodded. I said that I would hate you for eternity, for what you’ve done for sometime. However, in my heart, that is not what I feel. I am lost without you. I don’t even know where to begin. If I could say those words to make everything right, I would. Yet, I don’t. I will never know. That kills me, no; it destroys me, inside.
These past few months, they have been hard. On not just me, but everyone connected to us. I have drug people down with me, and that, is unforgivable. Yes, I admit I’ve done some horrible, unforgiving sins, yet not a day goes by where I don’t regret every one of them.
There have been times when I was haunted by my memories, tormented, as if they were mocking me! There were times when I’d have nightmares of them. Then I would dream of you. Yes, I’ve dreamt of you. Many nights I have. It hurt to see your face in my dreams. It hurt to see my past replaying in my head, but I still dream. I dream of what I would say if, I ever saw that sweet face of yours once more. Honey, I try to stop loving you. It destroyed us. Love is what tore us apart. I loved you too much, and it ruined our lives. Because of love, I am scarred for life. Therefore, I do not wish it any longer.
I have tried, and failed, ... At least, I have tried. I’ve only ever yearned to hear your melodic voice once more. No, I’m not attached. I’ve done my best to move on with my life. Yet there is still a calling within me that wonders how you are doing. How are you doing in your life without me in it? How have you grown? Have you learned to let go, and move on?
Why I have done this, you may ask. The answer is quite simple. Because I am nothing without you.Without you my days are "Sadday,"Moanday, "Tearsday, "Wasteday, "Thirstday, "Fightday", and "Shatterday".If you have 1000 years of age, I just want to have 999 years and 364 days, so I never have to live a day without you.I assume that knowing you were a great lover ..... To me, you are real. As real as a butterfly in the spring. As real as the rain in summer, or the snow in winter.
If my love is a question, I'm sure u are the answer.If loving you is a crime. I'd like to be jailed for my whole life, in your heart.
Love is not finding someone to live with, It's finding someone you can't live without.