LOVE LETTER -XLV- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear....

At night I dreamed about the magical moments we shared ...Holding hands on the street, laying in each other's loving embrace...Every last moment was still stuck in my brain.....

They were still stuck in the creases of my fast-paced mind.No matter how hard I tried to be rid of them, they stuck there like the disgusting files of a glue trap.Unable to move or take flight.Reminding my mind of what my heart never wanted to forget.
Oh Allah.. I never want to forget that at one point you, yes you, the nonchalant musician,had once loved me.Yes you loved me.And dear Allah.. did I still love you? I loved you with every last fiber of my being...

I loved you to the point where I would take my life for you if it would bring you back. Even if it were just for my dying breaths. If I do recall in my manic behavior I even threatened to take my life. Yes, I in fact held a knife to my wrist and told you that I was in the middle of doing the nasty deed. And what was your response to me? ...

"Stop being so fucking over dramatic. It's just an easy break up" And that's what pushed me over the edge. That is what made me press the knife, down onto my exposed vein and draw ugly dark lines of red that, quite fortunately.... didn't kill me. But damn if I didn't try. It was an easy break up? For you my dear it might have been.

I can't say it isn't easy to look at you these days. Because it is. It is easy to look at you. Accept when I look at you I don't feel the sick amount of adoration I had for you. No, instead I can stare at you and pity you. Because while I moved on to a brighter and better life, you're still stuck being the sad lonely creature you are since you left. Yes, I noticed the change. I noticed the spark in your eye fade into the dull shell of a man yoo've become. And I can't feel sorry for you. I just can not. And I'm ok with that.....with heart hurt....

Your's Truly,
-LOVEFOREVER-

LOVE LETTER -XLIV- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear Love,

Hi.... You're always lighting up my heart with the things you do and say. I feel so happy just being with you this way. You're my love, and will forever be my love. You will always be the love of my life, and please never give up, always have faith in yourself and you will gain the greatest gift of all, the gift of hope and love you righteously deserve. Every time I think of you my heart misses a beat. You're my theme for a dream!

Every moment we share together we grow closer. I'm simply hanging by a moment, waiting to see you again so you can hold me so tight that all else fades, I thought after I left, you would fade away from my mind, but..... still everyday I wake up dreaming of our time together. I will never forget you. I hope you still think of me too. I love you with all that I am, all that I was and all that I will ever be.

Please know that my love and I are inseparable and I would want it no other way and if time could express my love for you then it's forever and a day, I can't wait to be with you, see your smile, look in your eyes, feel your sweet touch, hear your perfect words and laugh with you in the perfect relationship. the way I feel about you some people call it crazy, some call it insane,

but I call it true love. I really love you......

When we first met, I didn't even consider you real. You were just a pixel on a screen. We talked more and I became so confused. "How I could I have real feelings for a person I've never met?" I'd ask myself. I will never forget the first time I looked into your eyes; it was at that very moment I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. In your eyes I saw everything I needed to know. It's been are years now. Things have not been easy. We've had our ups and downs but, through it all, I do know what we have is so very real.

Honey...I know it is difficult for you, as it is for me, to be separated for so long. Life seems to be full of trials of this type which test our inner strength, and more importantly, our devotion and love for one another. After all, it is said that "True Love" is boundless and immeasurable and overcomes all forms of adversity. In truth, if it is genuine, it will grow stronger with each assault upon its existence.

Dear.., our love has been assaulted many times, and I am convinced that it is true because the longer I am away from you, the greater is my yearning to be with you again. I cherish any thought of you, prize any memory of you that rises from the depths of my mind, and live for the day when our physical separation will no longer be.

Until that moment arrives, I send to you across the miles, my tender love, my warm embrace, and my most passionate love.

Love always,

-LOVEFOREVER-

LOVE LETTER -XLIII- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear love...

I used to pray for us to be alone, because I envisioned that we'd never run out of things to say. We're both such freaks, such word addicts, so similar yet careening down radically different paths. I used to dream of possiblities floating over our heads, little cartoon-bubble musings matched with cups of coffee.

But on that day, the last day as far as I'm concerned, we sat in a room full of goodbyes and leavings, as filled with last-minute emotion as it could possibly be, and found nothing, nothing on earth, to say.

My Love; my Sweet ... I look back at the years that we shared together, how amazing my time with you was. Sometimes it breaks my heart to go that far back down the road and be reminded of how much I loved you; how much we loved each other. I have never felt a love so magnificent and immaculate than that of which I had in my heart for you. How could two people that felt as if they could never live without each other, now become so distant and far apart? How can a love that was meant to last, crumble right before our very eyes? What happened to our love ... what happened to us?

I would've never thought that I would ever have to question or doubt what we had. You're an amazing man, honey..., you've helped me to discover my dreams and inspired me to become the woman that I've always dreamed of becoming. I am a better person because of you - because you believed in me, because you love me. I love you dearly, ....., with all my heart.

I look into your eyes and I see a love that is very much still there, but no longer radiant and alive. I don't believe that we grew apart, my love, but we began to grow differently. Does that mean that we stopped loving each other? Absolutely not. You're a very special soul in my life and you will always continue to be. I love you with all my being and I accept that we are now traveling down different paths in our lives, but my love for you will always remain constant and my past of you will be relived in my dreams. Though our roads are different, our paths will always cross and maybe someday in the future, our roads will meet and we will travel down the same path once again, until then my sweet love ... in my heart is where you always reside.

True love never dies as we see in our eyes, only when we let go that we can truly say goodbye...If my love for you were water, it would be as vast as an ocean...There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It's caused by the absence of you...When you love a woman, you see your world inside her eyes...

I will love you all my life and when I die I will still love you through eternity and beyond.....

-LOVEFOREVER-

LOVE LETTER -XLII- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear love....,

I just wanted to thank you! You know I don't think you realize how much you inspire me. I am so proud of the person you've become and are becoming. I understand you've been through a lot and you've made not the best of choices, but I can see that you have grown.

Though truthfully I've always known from the very first time I met you to now, that you were a strong person.

You are so full of wisdom about life that when you speak it really makes me think that I could stay there forever just to listen to your open mind, for it is peaceful and inviting.

Honey..., you have become my awakening, you have helped me see things in a brighter way, In a happier, enlightening way. For I was once drowning from my own fears, completely cynical about love, about hope and security. I used to think that no one understood me and could ever.

Then one day before I knew you personally, you flew into my thoughts and at that moment though I wasn't truly sure why you were there. Suddenly I felt reassured and a smile was brought to my heart. Somehow I believe deep down I knew I loved you then.

When I got to know you a year later I realized I wasn't alone and that something inside of you was hurting similar to what constantly brought tears to my eyes. I went through a time in my life where I felt worthless unloved, continuously searching for happiness.

But, you made me laugh and forget everything that was going on. That year you became my escape, my survival. I don't think I could of made it through that year as strong as I did if you weren't in my life.

Honey.... I thank you for all the fun times we spent together even if they were short lived. Now over the years I have come to this conclusion you must have been an angel sent by God to help me grieve and become a strong willed woman because no one has ever been able to help me see the light. Clouds of darkness shadowed over me no matter what any other soul would say, but you make me smile with just your presence.

You don't have to say a word; everything's okay when you're beside me. You know I thank God every day for the amazing people he has brought into my life because each and every one of them has changed my life in a very beautiful dramatic way.

And I believe people are brought into your life for a reason, a way in which to guide you and help you see yourself. I like to call all those wonderful people my angels, my earthly angels. Honey... you are one, and I thank you once again from the bottom of my heart. And though we may never be, just know you will always live in my heart.

Love always,

-LOVEFOREVER-

LOVE LETTER -XLI- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

To my dearest...

There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart, that our hearts have come to dwell together, as one. You are my life, my heart, my soul. You are my lover...my best friend....

You are my one true love. Time to time..365 Days dreaming of you...8760 hrs thinking of you...525600 Mins missing you...315360000 Millisec just wanted to tell you how much you mean to me....You are my destiny. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today. Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living.

Before this I think...everything you did was a manipulation, after all. Every little word you said, though I believed it at the time, was self-serving.That why a word lier always come out from my mouth or always hurting you in my sms...

Now I know that is you a person of few words. You don't often say what is on your mind and even if you do, it usually doesn't come out quite right. But what you do not express verbally doesn't mean you don't fell it in your heart...That what I learn and try to understand your attitude as what you always said...

When we first met, feelings that I didn't know existed stirred in my heart. An unexplained desire to know you better and a burning hope that I made a good impression. It is not often that we come across a person in our lives that we want him/her to take notice of us and ignite the spark that is embedded in our hearts.

For some, love doesn't occur in an instant. Even I used to think that love takes some time to grow, especially the kind of deep love that envelops us now. But love can also be strange. If the person feels right in every way, love can take on a level of intensity that we never knew we are capable of feeling.

And this is what I'm experiencing right now. Being with you is comfort, love, security, contentment, passion and happiness, all rolled into one. A myriad of feelings but each works with one an other to build a profound emotion in my heart that only you are capable of arousing. This relationship...fairly ....in our hearts..

Please forgive me for all the hurt that I have caused you in the past; I love you and I always will until I die. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and you will be that last angel face I see. I will be able to hold you in my arms one last time and tell you how much I love you and how much you really mean to me.

But....When I don't message you or call you....Doesn't mean....I forgot about you.......

I was just giving you time.......To miss me........

- LOVE FOREVER-

LOVE LETTER -XL- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Hello Dear...

I can see you in my mind, blushing over these feeble words and it makes me smile in a sad sort of way. You will be sitting there reading these sentences and feeling a little fear that I may well be obsessed; but also flattered and smug. Does this assuage your need for hero-worship? Were we not on a boat that last night you’d have seen me down on my knees – would that have sufficed? I knew we were reaching an ending of sorts and I wanted my feelings for you clearly understood.

Pen now and ink. These are all that are left to me. Again. As usual. Were you here now… what? I no longer know. My head is no longer clear and my heart has overflowed. It is dripping flames of agony and desire and longing throughout and over my body.

I hurt…......what more can I say? Silence and stillness.

Were you here now…? I’m not sure. Candles? Darkness? Which would better suit? Should I hide still in this solitude? Should I be ashamed of these feelings and the actions they require of me to be fulfilled? Possibly I have no shame left. Not after those moments with you. Why should I feel shame for loving someone? I tried to – a couple of times – because society says I am wrong to do what I have done. My mind, my heart, my soul – they disagree. My life, lived the way it has been, would have had me do no less. Only more, were that an option.

It is not. Silence and stillness.

For all that lack of light I could still see you clearly. Could you see my face that night? I hope so. I was smiling and laughing softly to myself over what a mouth can do without ever uttering a word.

Silence without stillness. I miss you.

Are you fearing obsession again? Don’t. I’m not. I’ve been obsessed before and this isn’t it. I know it well. I lived with it for a years. It is a dark and heavy feeling, deep with brooding and self-taught lies. My mind is free of that and clear enough to know the truth. Back then I couldn’t tell the difference between reality and my own brainwashing. I can now. Maybe it’s because I can differentiate between the two that I am so sad. Reality is a harsh and cold place to live at times

I guess now is one of those times.

Why can’t I feel you in my memory? I know the body was designed to forget the sensation of physical pain; was it fair of Allah to deny us the remembrance of physical pleasure also? Maybe it is a blessing that I do not have that to mourn over; to highlight even more forcibly what I no longer have. I don’t know. All I know is that I miss having you here to light up this darkness, roar through this silence and bring joy into this solitude.

Thank you for the memories… but won’t you please come out to play?

It’s okay.

I know you won’t..

But..my love for u is always full in my heart...

LOVE FOREVER.....

LOVE LETTER -XXXIX- ( For Everybody who was fall inlove )

Dear honey....

These past two years, with a clear head but full heart. I have no regrets, just this ineffable sadness lurking throughout my rooms of memory. To turn back time and savour those moments with you more deeply is an impossibility. Not because I do not have the means to time travel, for I do. Memory is a blessing I bear – one I often curse because it remembers all too clearly what I have lost. I can walk the corridors of the past with ease, each second with you is fresh and vivid; alive with sight and sound and scent. The impossibility lies in the fact that it is physically, emotionally and mentally beyond me to cherish those moments any more than I did at the timmye of their creation. They were experienced with more intensity than this frail heart and body should ever have been asked to bear as it was.

The pain lies now in the lack of sensation; the total numbness of my hands and body when I recall how you held me and kissed me. I can’t feel that. Without your touch these memories are just home videos thrown up on the vein-cracked wall of my mind. How is it that a person can still taste another’s ....... and yet be unable to bring to mind those feeling to hers?

I will tell u some thing though I m next to u … I love the way say … aahhhhaa … you can’t imagine How much I love you .. but I m scared for only n only one thing … will you love me like this forever ….. cause this is your love who made me crazy .. now If u will chage .. I really dont know what will I do …. I can’t even say .. I will die and go to some other world .. cause there also I would be searching you … I have always had a dream to get some one like you … I never know god could be so great full to me to send you to my life … You are my life … My heart ….. If I open my eyes I want to see you … If I want to hear some thing .. I only want to hear your voice ….. If sind comes to touch me .. I want it should touch u first and then come to me ….. I love uuuuu …

-LOVEFOREVERANA-